Two years ago Jamie Hagiya shared a photo on Instagram and commented that she had been struggling with her body image. This was the same year that Hagiya competed as an individual at the 2016 CrossFit Games. So while she was one of the fittest women on the planet, she still, like many women, had issues with how she looked.
I want to share something with you. I posted this almost exactly 2 years ago to this date. It was the byproduct of seeing a photo of myself amongst other shredded female CrossFit Games athletes. It just so happened to be my thoughts and feelings that I wrote down, and somehow the next morning I woke up to it going semi-viral being shared on websites like “Yahoo” and “People”. But one thing I never shared with you was the picture that sparked it all. Which I’ll do in my next post. ——————————————- #Repost @jamiejoyce2 ・・・ I'm going to address something that has been on my mind a lot lately. It's a hard subject for me since I struggle with body image issues but here goes nothing. My body does not look like all the other @crossfitgames female athletes with crazy ripped abs and zero body fat on their stomachs. I wish I could look like that, but I've come to the realization that this is my body. I work my ass off in training everyday. I eat clean for the most part, but am human and love to indulge in dessert every now and then. I'm in the best shape of my life and still don't have a six pack. Not even close to a 4 lol. Some of it is genetics and the other part is I could eat less calories to try to look like everyone else. But the bottom line is I need to eat to perform. I can't worry about trying to look like a "Games" athlete because having a six pack doesn't always make for the best athlete. So for anyone who thinks they need to look a certain way to be a Regionals or Games competitor, you don't. Stay on the grind and keep doing you!
Fast forward two years to this week and Hagiya looked back at this and shared that she continues to struggle with accepting how she looks. Hagiya shared the original photo that sparked her issues in 2016 and the new group photo that retriggered her emotions.
Hagiya wrote, “It bothers me that this is still an issue and constant battle I’m trying to overcome. Even though I’ve made a lot of progress in learning to love and accept my body. And I may come off as super confident, I just want to let you know there’s still times that I struggle with it.”
She continued, “For me it’s my stomach, for others it might be different parts of their body, as we all have this “PERFECT” image of what our bodies should look like. But like I tell others, “love and appreciate your body for what it can do and not what it looks like”. And with that, I’ll be kinder to myself and if you deal with this issue as well… I hope you can all do the same ❤️#bodyimageissues #loveyourself”
This was the picture. ———————————————————- My initial reaction was, “Ew! I look so fat and disgusting”. Which 1) Are horrible words to say to myself! And 2) Please know that I understand calling myself that might offend some people, but to each his own, and these are the demons I face. So after seeing this, I specifically remember telling @tennil_reed that verbatim, and I skipped out on ice cream that night because of it. I probably should have anyways cause I was training for the Games lol, but my normal self would have ate some. ———————————————————— Fast forward 2 years later to the 2nd photo with my team from yesterday. I had the EXACT same thoughts and feelings. ———————————————————— It bothers me that this is still an issue and constant battle I’m trying to overcome. Even though I’ve made a lot of progress in learning to love and accept my body. And I may come off as super confident, I just want to let you know there’s still times that I struggle with it. ————————————————————— For me it’s my stomach, for others it might be different parts of their body, as we all have this “PERFECT” image of what our bodies should look like. But like I tell others, “love and appreciate your body for what it can do and not what it looks like”. And with that, I’ll be kinder to myself and if you deal with this issue as well… I hope you can all do the same ❤️#bodyimageissues #loveyourself
Fellow CrossFit Games athletes have since commented on Hagiya’s posts.
Mekenzie Riley commented, “We all feel alone in this but it seems we all feel shades of this same sentiment. Flat out, the comparison game sucks. I’ve concluded that no matter how we look, or what amazing feats our able bodied achieve we still won’t ever be satisfied with ourselves. It’s a fight we gotta fight every day. Strong IS beautiful. Fit IS empowering. However that looks IS irrelevant. Thanks for reminding me.”
Kelsey Kiel also left an an encouraging comment, “Take it from someone who struggles with this every.single.day : I am not sure it’ll ever get easier. But we’re just constantly wading through the sludge trying to love ourselves for what we are and all that we are capable of. AND just doing our freaking best.
“Also plz hear this from someone who looks up to YOU every single day: thank you for being open and honest and vulnerable. You are amazing, Jamie!!!”
Hagiya will be returning to the CrossFit Games this year, but as a team member in the team competition. Hagiya is a member of Torrance CrossFit.